When we were discussing baby names, I had the hilariously brilliant idea of giving Olivea the initials OPS or Oooops, since her conception was not exactly a planned event. I was half joking, and thought this was funny. Some of my friends and family thought so too.....Nick and I sat down one day brainstormed all the "P" middle names we could think of...Piper, Penelope, Phoebe, etc. This entertained us for a few days. And then some party poopers actually got mad at me for it. They said I would scar her for life by making her feel that she was unwanted. But let me clear something up right now....Olivea may not have been planned, she may have been an ooops, it may have been irresponsible of her parents not to take better precautions, we should have waited until we were married, etc. etc. BUT she was never unwanted!!!! I loved her the second I knew she was there. There is a huge difference between an accidental pregnancy and an unwanted one. Were Nick and I fully prepared for it? No. Were we completely secure as a couple? No. Did I have any clue what I was getting myself into? No. But I wouldn't change it for the world. She has brought a sense of both absolute terror and complete bliss and fulfillment into my life. It feels like my purpose on this earth isn't what I want or what I'm going to do....its how great of a mom can I be to this little person and what can I do to make her great. She will do amazing things...this one. Wait and see...
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